Konnichi wa minna!

Hey guys! I'm just sitting here waiting for my next class to start so I thought I would give you guys another link to me if you want to know more about me.

http://www.facebook.com/inbox/?drop&ref=mb#/profile.php?sid=0c8070737c147980e2bd9ebe46aa14a6&id=1465614758&hiq=michelle%2Cbarry

I'm on facebook after much encouragement to join.

I haven't done much writing, because I've been caught up in schooling. Anyone who says school is their priority, I agree with all of you. As I'm trying to pass with flying colors, I will be concenrating mostly on my school work, so I probably won't be updating unless I get time or am really bored. I also still live with Writer's Block so that hasn't gone away.

Kage, I haven't talked to you in so long, I feel like it has been years since we've actually had a conversation. Gomen nasai! I didn't send you your birthday present, but at least I remembered when it was. I should probably write to you so I can tell you all about how well things are going for me right now. I sent you a link to facebook just in case you want to join up so look for that in your email.

Anyway, I'll talk to you guys later.

Yeah, I know this is posted on the 19th and your birthday is on the 17th, but I didn't get to post this till today. I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday. Hope everything is going well. Talk to you soon.

Ja ne
Kura

I know it has been a considerably long time since any of you have heard from me, but things are much better in my life. I went back to school and the change has been positive. I currently go to a writing-based school where everything is determined by evaluations instead of grades. I really like it, though I have to read a lot. Unfortunately this means that there is considerably less time for me to focus on my fiction writing, causing you all to wait longer. Writer's Block and lack of will have set me back a couple years, but rest assured I have not abandoned anything yet. Actually, it seems that the Kurama/Kagome craze that started way back has died down a little bit. This is most likely because people have gotten into new manga and anime. I, myself, did this, falling in love with Death Note. I can't help it, I am a yaoi and Shounen-ai lover now and my focus has changed from what it once was. However, I have recently been re-reading some of my former stories and am getting back into the spirit of things. Of course it would help if I had my inspiration lurking around, but I haven't heard anything from Kage in months. This could be because I have been lazy and haven't written to her, but I am planning on doing that soon, especially since her birthday is next month. Yes, Kage, you are getting a present from me. What it is, I have no idea, but I am determined to get you something. After all, you were probably the one person who got me through all the past hard times. Now that everything is getting back on track I really wish we could find each other. Are you even still among the living? Anyway, I just wanted to update you all so you know I do still live. Kudos to all the people who still review my stories, as some of them seem rather childish to me now. Hopefully you all continue to be on the lookout for new updates...if I get around to writing them, that is.

Well, ja ne minna!

Kura

Konnichi wa, minna-san!

Well I finally updated a story, although it isn't really an update because it's just another one-shot. Yes, I've put another story into my Sweet Kagome collection, but it isn't a pairing fic like my others. Actually, it's a Kagome/Shippo, mother/son story and I promise you it's really sweet, if a bit short. I was listening to a song and it inspired me to write the piece. Surprisingly, it came rather easily, something that hasn't happened in a long time and I was able to write and post it within 4 hours of the idea. I dare say that actually got me in the mood to update my other stories as well. However, that may be a problem for another few days. For one, I live in Ohio where we just had hurricane winds blow through after Ike. We didn't get any rain, just a lot of wind; a wind that was able to knock out power to practically my whole county and a lot of Ohio. So, needless to say I am still without power and it has been 4 days. I've been severely bored without my internet and tv and my parents still don't have cable. At least they have power, but it is still pretty boring over there without any thing to do.

Let me tell you, my managers even made me work on a day when we didn't have power. I work at Waffle House and it's a place that never closes...ever! We're even open on Christmas and Christmas Eve. I guess the theory is that if other food places are closed, people will come to us for business. And it works, because we had to work on Monday when no one had power. I, for one, thought it was a hazard, first because our food was spoiled and second because we had to work in the dark for the first few hours in the morning. They even made third shift stay the night before...in the dark...with only candles and a gas grill. It was dangerous, they could have been robbed and raped. The cops even came by and asked our night cook if he was robbing the place because they were walking around with flashlights. And when I came in in the morning, people expected us to be like God's and have everything set up for them. Unfortunately, we had to buy our own coffee, instead of grinding it, and we had to use a gas grill to cook and leave doors open so we didn't all breathe in carbon gas. It was awful and people came in all at once and I was totally busy trying to get everyone set up. We even had to boil our own water and THEN poor it through the machine and we ran out of coffee more than a few times. So we went that way until 11:00 and then the power came on right after the fire martial told us we had to shut down. So then more people showed up and it got even busier. Our dish washed was broken (I won't explain anymore, just know that we had to wash most of the dished by hand) and we were overwhelmed by people who didn't know what else to do...when they could have gone down the highway 5 miles and stopped at a restaurant down there. ARGH!!! Can you tell I've been waiting forever to get that off my chest. At least I got to be off yesterday and today and even tomorrow. I needed a break and thought the managers managed that situation poorly. I would have shut down, regardless of business, because the last thing you want to do is make people sick and get a lawsuit. And what does that say about the way you feel about the employees. It sure made me feel as if I were worthless.

Well anyway, I'm starting school next Saturday. I can go back and get my Bachelor's degree and I only have to go one day a week. It's a little expensive, but I hope in the long run everything will be worth it. Hopefully, I won't have too far to go.

How's my sister!? I can assure you I'm still alive and wondering where and how you are. I swear to everything holy I will write you soon, I'm just really busy and forgetful. That's it for now, I guess. Hope every one appreciates the fact that I'm able to write again...at least for now. Perhaps once my cable and power is back, I'll be able to actually write on my own computer instead of at the public library.

Ja ne,
Kura

Konnichi wa, minna-san!

Long time, no see everyone! Sorry, but my desktop computer is currently unhooked and my laptop has crashed millions of times to the point where I'm on the internet in safe mode and still attracting viruses. It isn't fun, and I can't write at all, but I must keep reading. Seriously, reading fanfiction helps calm my fears whenever I'm worried about something. Well enough about that, let's give you an update shall we?

Last you heard from me I had broken my foot. Well now it is fixed for the most part. I still walk with a limp sometimes which is kind of annoying and embarrassing for all sorts of reasons, but at least I'm back to work and throwing it all away on bill after bill. Seriously, people, don't ever break yourself. You'll end up owing doctors a ton of money and it isn't fun. Oh! I also graduated! Yes, I now have an Associates Degree in Liberal Arts and am looking forward to putting that toward my Bachelor's. I applied to two different colleges near me, one of them I'm almost decided upon. It's called Antioch and it's a very artsy type of school. They do nonconventional grading, meaning most assignments are written and you get an evaluation at the end of the quarter instead of a grade. It's very interesting, though expensive, but there are things about the school I like, including the fact that they have no foreign language requirements. That was almost my deciding factor right there.

What else can I say about my life these days? Oh! I had a stalker, though he wasn't the serial killer type, more like the innocent/naive lamb who doesn't know when to quit. So, Kage-chan, if you want to know more about this stupid kid you'd better get on this thing someday soon so I can tell you all about my horrible luck with internet dating. Sniff, sniff, I miss my sister. I don't think I've been able to talk to you for more than half a year...well other than our written letters. I've been meaning to write you again, I just was waiting for the school year to start because I didn't know which state you'd be in. But I'll send you something soon, promise!

As for my writing life, that's pretty much on hold until my writer's spirit comes back. Having writers block is not fun and everything sounds like crap the more I try to write. I need my inspiration back. Though I have come up with a humorous nonfiction idea stemming from my place of work. It's all about being a server, but I can't tell you much because I actually hope to publish this idea. Anyway, that's about all, kind of boring right? Yep, that's my life. Well hope you guys still want me around because I'm really trying to get back on track with my writing. I have tons of ideas, but I'm not sure I'm up to the task of trying any of them because most revolve around Death Note/Inuyasha crossovers. Sorry, but Death Note seems extremely hard to write and I'm kind of off the Kurama/Kagome bandwagon from years past. Not that I don't still love the pairing, it's just that I seem to have fallen in lust with yaoi stories, most revolving around Death Note in general. I know it's weird but I can't help it. I promised Kage a long time ago that I would never read that stuff, but it started out so simple. Meerly a few Kurama/Yusuke stories a few store bought shounen-ai stories and I was hooked...like a drug!

Well hope this appeased you guys for now, though I know people are still begging for more story updates instead of my boring life.

Ja ne,
Kura


P.S. Please, please, please get online soon Kage-chan. At least let me know when you're available.

Waaaaaaaaaaahhhh! Kage-chan I miss you so much! You're the only one who loves me this much! When I got your package it made me so happy I almost cried. I'd been having a pretty crappy birthday. I got it today, one day before my actual birthday, and we had just finished celebrating because my dad is going out of town tomorrow, plus my sister is already out of town and my brother had to work. So it was just me, my mom, my dad, and my grandma. And I mostly got money because I have to pay bills so I didn't get a lot of presents. But for some reason, things were getting to me. I graduated this past Friday and I still need to get my Bachelor's degree so I went to a different college for their open house. I'm pretty sure my major is English with an interest in Professoinal and technical writing. Basically I want to be an editor. But because of past issues with school, I'm going to have to pay for my schooling and it's really expensive. My mom kept going on and about how she didn't know how I could afford classes and how I shouldn't go full time, which I need to do so to finish within two years. I'm starting to think that at this point it would be fair for my parents to pay for my schooling. After all, they paid for my sister's 6 years and my brother's now. But I feel guilty for asking them of this, especially since I didn't do well at one point in time. Anyway, all that was getting to me and all in all my birthday was pretty sucky this year, especially since I'm still injured. I'll tell you more about that in the actual letter I write to you. So I got home and opened your package and I immediately felt better. You're so sweet, and my turtle was so cute and soft. I've never tried pocky and I'm eating it now. It's good. And your letter made me laugh, even though I'm sorry you keep tripping. Trust me, if getting cuts and bruises is the most you get, you should feel lucky. Anyway, I go to the doctor to see if I get this fixator off, but I'm not placing any bets. With my luck, it will be another month and there is no way I want to experience this for another 4 weeks. It's already been 6. Anyway, I have to go and see if I can fix this comuter. I'm operating in safe mode right now, but it won't let me actual get on to Windows XP. Talk to you later!

Ja ne
Kura

I have some really bad, potentially good news for you guys. I recently broke two bones in my foot and have to have surgery on said foot. After which I have to remain on one peg leg for 6-8 weeks and even then I'll still have a cast and have to hobble around and heal. So this means for me I'll be off of work (meaning I cannot work at all because I'm a waitress) and I'll have no money and have a huge pile of medical bills. This is the bad news. The silver lining in all this is I'll have all the time in the world to finish writing and to update those works that have since gone unfinished. Writer's block kills, but I have to find some way to kill my boredom. So far all I've done is read other peoples' work and also restarting Final Fantasy X. My intent is to go through the whole game and get everything. Since I have beat it before, I am feeling no pressure. It just takes a long time. Its a good thing I enjoy the fighting part, not just the story. Otherwise I would still be terribly bored.

Okay so this next part is for Kage. I wrote to you the other day but I'm very sorry I haven't been able to get it in the mail. All it would take is for me to find and envelope and mail the sucker, but I have been unmotivated to get moving. Not that I don't love you and really want you to read my letter (mostly because there are more secrets coming, mostly about how I hurt my foot). Just know that when you receive your reply, you will be the only person who knows the truth about how I hurt my foot. Everyone else, including my parents think I just fell, but there's more to the falling part that you just have to know. Also, please, please, please get on AIM some time soon. I really need to talk to you. So far I haven't managed to depress myself yet, except for worrying about my job and further complications. But I miss you and I feel like its been forever since we chatted. Oh, yeah, I guess it should be obvious but I got your new letter the other day. It really made me happy and I assure you I typed a response to you the same day I wrote my reply.

Anyway, people, I have no real big news to tell you, other than my manga supply is bigger than ever. I probably have around 600 books all lying around waiting for me to get back to them. I've been staying at my parents house because my mom insisted I stay there so she could look after me. But I really, really, really would like to return home at some point. Hopefully by next week, but I can't guarantee anything since I don't know how long I'll have to recover from surgery.

Well guys, looks like that's it for now. See ya'll later.

Ja ne
Kura

konnichi wa, minna!


Sorry, people, I know it's been awhile, but I've had a severe case of writer's block, plus school and I'm working my life away at Waffle House. I have to say happy belated birthday to Kage-chan! I meant to leave a message for you, little sister, but I completely forgot to put one up for you. Kage's birthday was on the 17th so everyone wish her a good birthday. And also, MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR so all those who celebrate. And to everyone else who may celebrate other things, happy holidays.

Let's see, since I haven't been writing I've pretty much been reading all the other people's stories. Right now I'm still into Death Note and also Petshop of Horrors. I've gotten some really good ideas for some crossovers, but I just haven't been able to get anything written. Lord knows I've started and then stopped so many times. It's quite annoying. I don't think I've ever had writer's block for this long before. I can't even update all my older stories, though that's mostly because I want to try many different things. I just have a lot of favorite other pairings right now and they seem like a gigantic task to even start. I want to write a lot of crossovers and some of them have a yaoi overtone. And since I've never written one, well one that has already gotten to the shounen-ai parts, it seems a bit overwhelming. Catch Me When I'm Falling will eventually have it, but no pairings have been established.

I'm so sorry I have writer's block, but I have vowed to never quit and abandon my stories. I will eventually update and I even have a tentative one-shot started which would be added to my Sweet Kagome collection. We'll see. I'm on holiday this week so I hope I can get some work done.

Well I guess that's enough for now. Kage-chan, since you should be on break for a few weeks, I hope you get on sometime so we can catch up. Love you, little sister. Talk to ya' later!

Ja ne.
Kura

Konnichi wa, minna-san!


Long time no updates, ne? Gomen, gomen nasai, but I really have no excuses. I have all these big ideas in my head and they seem a bit intimidating, mostly because some of these stories (okay, all of them) are crossed with mangas and animes I've never tried to include or write about.

You see, I've become a huge manga fanatic this past year and I have over 300 editions in my collection. Yes, it's larger and more extensive than my entire anime collection. But I can't help it, manga is so seriously addicting. I should feel like a juvenile, allowing myself to want things that cost so much and for something a lot of people consider childish. But for me reading new stories is all about escaping into a new world. Whenever I feel sad or confused or worried about things in my life, I can read a manga or flip on a computer and immerse myself into a world that isn't mine.

And so now that I've gotten slightly off topic, I do want to say I've had several fantastic ideas for crossovers. However, whenever I open word or think about starting up again, something stops me. So, here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to start a series...probably consisting of one-shots and short stories, but they are going to be on different animes and mangas, though most of the stories will include Inuyasha, as Kagome is still my number one heroine for some reason. But I'm going to give you guys a list of the mangas and animes I want to crossover. I would like you guys to vote and send me ideas on what pairings should be included, what the storyline should be and so on....so, here goes.

Death Note/Inuyasha (Death Note seems like an intimidating task and I have no idea how I'm going to keep these guys in character. They are way, way too smart for me and whatever I'm going to write about has to appear like I know what I'm talking about....you know? I have some ideas, but do any of you have any suggestions and/or prompts you'd like to read?).

Petshop of Horrors/Inuyasha (I love Petshop of Horrors. I've had some ideas, but I'm curious to see if anyone else has any ideas/thoughts...etc).

Hikaru no Go/Gravitation (Don't...ask. Just know that I enjoy Yaoi...a lot...so whatever comes of this, it'll have some boy love).

Prince of Tennis/Inuyasha (Have some ideas, but nothing concrete. Once again, some yaoi included).

Ouran High School Host Club (Probably wouldn't be a crossover, I'm not sure I like Kagome paired with any of these guys. I'm biased and think YYH guys are better. Just looking for general pairing suggestions, though I'm not a big Honey or Mori fan. I'm partial to the twins).

Kyo Kara Maou/Inuyasha (To be honest all my ideas for this crossover have completely flown away. I've forgotten my ideas but I would still love to try one. Pairing would probably be Yuri/Wolfram, and probably a YYH guy for Kagome. Sorry, but it's the yaoi thing for me. And I always consider what people are better suited for each other. I don't believe Wolfram would enjoy Kagome butting in on Yuri time...and Yuri...well he's quite clueless about feelings, so it just doesn't seem plausible for him to be with Kagome when he hasn't even figure out his feelings for Wolfram).

Well anyway, those are just a few suggestions and thoughts I've had in my head for awhile. I have a few really great ideas for a Death Note/Inuyasha (don't know the pairing yet. I enjoy Raito/L, but I could make it interesting and add Kagome in there...perhaps with her own alternate personality...and with Mello as her apprentice...apprentice you ask, why send a note here and perhaps I'll believe you guys are interested enough to find out what exactly he's apprentic...ing) and a PSoH (Sess/Kag as the pairing in that one, it would work better than a Yoko/Kag, trust me)!

Well, just wanted to send a note out to me dear little sister, who I finally got to talk to last week...or was it the week before...anyway, lets all wish her luck as she's moved all by herself and is going to school. Love you, little sister. I'd love your input on any of these if you have any suggestions, but I know you haven't read or haven't had the opportunity to watch some of these shows. But you know I value your opinion more than anyone else's! Not that I don't appreciate you other fans, but Kage has always been my favorite and her insight and psyche is wonderful and uncannily similar to mine.

Well, gotta' go people. I have no idea when I'll be updating any of my other stories. I have to get back into a Kagome mindset, but its been awhile and I'll have to think extremely hard to salvage me stories enough to still make them interesting and enjoyable.

Ja ne, minna!

Kura

Konnichi wa minna-san! I missed you all while I took a short hiatus from my writing. Sorry but I just had too much on my plate and not enough time to even consider updating. But luck is on your side, people, because I am finally back on first shift. Up till now I've been stuck on third and haven't had much time to do anything but sleep. But now I should be able to get a move on things...if I can take up things where I left off. Most of my stories remain unfinished and it's going to take me awhile to get back into Kurama/Kagome again. Not that I still don't love the pairing, its just that I've been into shounen-ai and yaoi lately so I've been concentrating on pairings that aren't exactly...ano...'accepted'. But I adore it for some reason. And I have a few new favorite couples to share with you.

Let's see the first would be Ryoma/Fuji from Prince of Tennis. It's a weird pairing for some of you because even if you like this series, most people prefer either Sakuno/Ryoma (gag me...sorry but Sakuno is a weak-willed female. She isn't strong enough or good enough to compete for Ryoma's attention) or Tezuka/Ryoma. I don't really mind Tezuka, but I like Fuji better. I always like the feminine ones. Other than that I've sort of been getting back into Kyou Kara Maou. I still like Princess Princess (Tooru/Yuujirou) but it's already over (at least the anime). They've only just released the third manga here so that's all I've read. Believe me, the manga is so much better than the anime. It's written so much better and their frienship/relationship is so much better.

Other than those, I do randomly pick up stray one-shot yaoi or shounen-ai. The latest one I got was called "Lost Boys" and, yes, it's based on Peter Pan only man-style where "Pan" is named Air and Wendy is a boy. But it was really cute and sweet and I can't wait to read more.

Well my eyes are getting tired and my friend is sitting next to me and picking (hitting) on me because he thinks we're supposed to be "friends with benefits" or something. Well....we're not! Kage, save me! He says he wants to have s....e....x with me, waaaaaaaaaaah!

Anyway, Kage, where are you moving to again? Have you found an apartment yet? Where are you going to school next year? Hey, maybe you'll be closer to me and we can finally meet each other. That would be so much fun. Day in and day out would be all about manga and anime. We'd be in our own personal heaven. Anyway, get on when you can. I don't have a set AM schedule yet but I should be on most nights now so get on whenever you can. I love you, little sister and contact me soon. Gotta' go.

Ja ne


Kura

Hi, people!


I know it's been awhile. Sorry, but I've been busy watching a few different animes and reading some new mangas (which are, interestingly enough, yaoi). Yes, it's true. Kage, I have finally gone and become one of those yaoi chicks. I read it, I watch it, I've thought about writing it. Yes, just kill me now *moans pathetically*. A year ago I couldn't even imagine picking up a yaoi manga or watching an anime with a clear basis on Shounen-ai. I would have probably blushed or been too embarrassed and yet now it appears to be my latest obsession. I've even considered writing my own yaoi stories, but that hasn't happened yet, mostly because I've never tried and I don't generally have time to write these days. I can't help it but in the past month, my understanding of boy/boy love has gone way, way up. You people would blush at the things I've read and the things I've seen. On the one hand, it has actually helped me have a better understanding of real people in same-sex relationships which, by the way, I am fully tolerant of. I've never been one to judge people based on that stuff anyway, so reading yaoi has just made it even more acceptable in my eyes. Not that I hadn't accepted it before, it's just that now it doesn't make me squirm when someone mentions it.

So do you all want to hear all about my crazy journey through yaoi-land? And, Kage, shut your ears since I know this stuff makes you blush like a mad woman, but hopefully it won't be too literal for you. Anyway...well it all started with a passion for Yu Yu Hakusho boys, one couple in particular turning out to be Kurama/Yusuke. To tell you the truth I have no idea which story I read first or even how I got into this pairing in the first place, but all I know is that one day I was reading everything I could about Yusuke and Kurama, about who was Uke and who was Seme (don't know, don't ask), about who was dominant and who was submissive. Eventually I exhausted that pairing to the brink and I now have probably read every story ever written for that pairing. (Incidentally I have and always will refuse to acknowledge Kurama/Hiei as a yaoi pairing. Sorry, people, I will never be a Hiei fan. No Kagome, no Kurama, no nobody). So anyway, after reading all of those stories (and thoroughly teasing Kage every chance I got about it) I must have moved on somewhere and I discovered an interesting new anime/game called Sukisho (Sukisyo to those who know the game, which I don't)...which is entirely based on boy/boy relationships. Yes, this was my first real experience with a anime based around boys exclusively. With YYH it's all speculation, but with this anime, it's right there in the open as clear as day. As you can imagine my fascination with Yaoi pairings grew extremely extensive. I read every story of Sora/Sunao that I could find and then some, I even started a story crossover with Sukisho, but I haven't been able to come up with a good enough next chapter, sorry readers. It wasn't until a few months ago that I finally read a real yaoi manga. I have no idea which one I read first, I just know that I have between 10-20 of those stashed in my manga collection and I now have an extremely open mind. My next experience (which is still on-going since the anime hasn't finished coming out yet) was Kyo Kara Moah (Yuri/Wolfram), which is also an anime with more speculation (though a lot more than YYH). Some time after that I came across Yami no Matusei (more angst than actual love interest stuff) but the evidence is in the characters themselves (Tzuzuki/Hisoka). After that I came across an interesting little manga called Princess Princess. It has a bit of a Shounen-ai overtone to it, but there are no clear pairings established. After that came, hmm, oh yeah, the big one! I finally bought the anime of Gravitation. For some reason I still haven't managed to pick up the manga, mostly because I don't particularly like the way the characters are drawn in the first few editions. But I enjoyed Gravitation (even though I really did hold out for a long time. I had always wondered what all the fuss was about and now I know). And lastly, I have just recently come into contact with a new manga/anime, which is Hikaru no Go. Okay, so those of you who may have glanced at the cover, decided it sounded boring, or just weren't interested in hearing about a boy learning a board game that's really more for older folks, you missed out. No, this anime isn't exclusively a shounen-ai or yoai of any kind, but there are certainly enough clues and innuendos that most stories written are yaoi-based. So after I watched every episode of it off of Youtube (76 episodes, it took me about 2-3 weeks to actually finish). I'm still collecting the manga but I'm going slow about it. I only have the first two editions but I'll buy the others when I get some more money.

Anyway, so that about wraps up where I am today. I'm now addicted to Hikaru/Akira pairings and I have so many ideas for crossovers in my head that I can't even begin to process them all. There are just so many pairings I enjoy reading about and I would like to take this time to ask you all a question. How many of you would read a collection of stories that were totally random, could have strange pairings and different story lines, but were romance-geared and most likely, extremely interesting? Yes, a lot of the pairings will have to do with Inuyasha and YYH. I can't split them up, especially when I refuse to write canon pairings for Inuyasha. You know my work (those of you who actually read this damn thing anyway) so you know any story that has Kagome will most likely have the Spirit Detectives involved. I have a lot of neat ideas if anyone wants to know what I'm thinking, you know where to find me (no, not work or in my bed).

I guess this is all for now. No new updates, because of my latest anime phase, but hopefully when I do update it will be worth the wait. I promise you I have some great ideas. So Kage, I'm taking next week off of work, starting Saturday. I hope you're not moving or in transit so you get this post, but I'll be on next week and I hope we get the chance to talk. It's been way, way too long and I miss you and are insane conversations. We have a lot to talk about.

Ta ta for now

Ja ne

Kura

It's not what you think, I'm serious. For those of you who may ask yourselves, "what's this crazy woman talking about?" well what am I talking about? Why, it's my new love of course *flutters happily on wings of ecstasy*. Anyway, as some of you may have already figured out, I tend to get quite hooked on new mangas and animes extremely easily; the last major anime being Sukisho and the last major manga being WJuliet which, by the way, is finally finished, sad to report. It was really awesome, though, and I'm not entirely pleased at the way the series ended since it still left just a few more things unanswered. But it was still good nonetheless and I still adore the manga...seeing as I am still able to read every episode and enjoy it.

Well anyway, enough about those past loves, for I have found a new one and it's totally awesome! It is *dun dun dun* Yami no Matsuei or in English terms Descendants of Darkness. I started off with the Manga and to tell you the truth I still like the Manga better. I ordered the anime through Amazon.com and watched the entire series in a day because it was only 13 episodes. True, it did stay true to the manga, though there were some things cut out. But the major arcs were still in there and it certainly kept me entertained. But still between the manga and the anime the manga certainly takes the cake. There are so many little things that breathe life into all the characters that aren't exactly shown in the anime and Hisoka and Tzuzuki's backgrounds are so full of angst and hidden emotions. Their relationship is certainly very interesting and quite romantic behind the scenes.

For some reason I fell in love with Shounen-ai and Yaoi stories in the recent year, even though YnM isn't really hardcore yaoi. But honestly, even you viewers who are a bit more squeakmish about that stuff would definitely enjoy this series. It is entirely captivating, interesting, riveting, fantastic, erotic, angsty (lots and lots of angst actually) dramatic, humorous, and romantic. It has so many genres it was hard to choose which one I loved best. I have since decided that the best part of this manga is the drama. That's semi-unusual for me because I have a tendency to like the romance stuff a lot better. It seemed like every character had a purpose, even the minor ones who show up once or twice. They all were inter-connected in some way and it brought new meaning to a person's existence. I just have to say that the anime does not show the relationships of everyone half as good as the manga does. Oh there are bits and pieces here and there, but to me, it was the little things that made the characters real. So if you guys ever get the chance to check out the manga or the anime, please do so, preferably the Manga. It comes highly recommended from me and as you all know, my words are priceless....*everyone sweatdrops and turns away in shame and pity*. Hey! Come back, I'm not finished yet *holds out world's longest rope and begins tugging back each and every reader*. I really only wanted to say a few more things and that's it.

The anime I bought has the voice-overs and not just the Japanese actors. I have to say I wasn't entirely impressed with anyone's voices. The only one I thought that sounded remotely right was the actor for Hisoka. Tzuzuki's voice wasn't bad, though, since both Hisoka's and Tzuzuki's voice-actors were extremely talented at the screaming and crying and being in pain parts. Other than that, Tatsumi's voice was all right, but I absolutely hated Watari's. He sounded positively stupid with that fake english-type accent. It was sort of amusing how Dr. Muraki's voice sounded like Hannibal Lector's in Silence of the Lambs. It was sort of a cross between a hiss and a sneer. Okay, so that's all I wanted to say about that.

So to conclude everything:

Manga-Buy it! Oh, you should know that it is still on-going in Japan. The anime ends and leaves a lot of questions unanswered, however the manga is still being written and there are a few editions that come after the end of where the anime leaves off. I have those by the way and let me tell you things get mighty interesting. You even get to see Tzuzuki's spirit gods in human form.

Anime-You can buy it, but I recommend reading the manga first. I was impressed that the anime did in fact stay true to the manga, though. The major arcs are very similar and go entirely according to what is written in the manga. Although Hisoka doesn't come across as mean or as rude in the anime version and Tzuzuki doesn't flirt as much or seem as idiotic as in the manga. But overall things stayed pretty much the same. Some anime that comes from Manga can be very different and disappointing *coughBlackCatcough*.

Well that's it for now, folks! Sorry it was another one of those long journals that nobody pays attention to, but I just had to get that out. No one besides you guys would understand my passion for manga and anime.

Ja ne
Kura

Okay...not to sound like Koga or anything, but seriously, where is my woman? Kage-chan I've been looking for you every chance I get, checking on AIM and livejournal, but for some reason you seem to have disappeared off the face of the earth. I hope everything is okay and I really miss talking to you. I, myself, haven't updated this journal but I did update two stories recently in case you didn't know. Well get back to me soon. At least let me know if things are okay. For some reason I have this feeling that things aren't all right. If I'm just being overly suspicious, my bad.

As for the rest of you wonderful people, I just wanted to let you all know I've updated two stories in the past month. Call of the Unknown, and, just recently, Fly to Freedom. So if you haven't done so already, be sure to check those stories out. In my opinion Fly to Freedom should be worth the wait. I have been working on several stories recently so hopefully I get enough inspiration to finish some more. Hope you all continue to read and review.

Ja ne
Kura

Okay. Uh, Kage, I'm sorry I didn't say it earlier or anything, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I don't actually remember what day it is (I'm such a bad, bad sister, and I have such a bad, bad memory) so I'm just going to write it out and hope that you get the message. I did start a story for you, however, I haven't had much time to write it. But I swear I will get it out before six months...you know...how long its taken you to get MY story out. I'm just kidding. Don't take offense (don't hit me!). Take as long as you want on my story. I don't mind waiting as long as it's for you.

And as for the rest of you. Hi! How are you? I'm not fine! Seriously. I went on vacation last weekend and it was okay other than the fact that my family was a little annoying the whole time. See we went to Las Vegas because my brother and dad were running in the Las Vegas Marathon. So I decided I wanted to go since I haven't had a vacation in quite some time. And, naturally, my sister decided she wanted to go to. It was only for three days, but to me it felt like much longer. Let me explain something. I get along with me family, I really do, however I've always felt in my heart that I've never been good enough for them. My mom and dad both have great jobs, they got their Master's Degrees and everything. My sister is currently working on her Master's Degree this year and my brother is graduating from high school and I'm sure he'll do extremely well where ever he goes. And then there's me. Yes, I'm the oldest and the first to do many things. But I have yet to graduate from college. I toiled around for a long time, stuck in a relationship I thought would at least make my parents proud if I married and had some kids or something. At least then I could say I accomplished something. But when that went nowhere, a lot of my chances seemed like they went down the drain.

And now whenever I'm with my family, around my sister in particular, I never speak. I don't feel smart and I feel like I have nothing to 'bring to the table' so to speak. Like, seriously, they were talking about her architecture stuff and all this Egyptian crap and I couldn't speak a word, mostly because I don't particularly remember everything I learned about that subject. And my brother, who I've always thought I was closer to, is starting to talk to my sister about everything. They share the same interests and the same music and movies and crap. And I am completely different. I hate their kind of music and they never want to talk about mine. They can sit and talk for hours about smart stuff and it just rolls on past me. I just don't understand how I've become so different from them.

In the recent year or so this feeling has been building up inside of me and it gets harder and harder to hold myself back. I don't know how to tell my mom about what I'm feeling, because I know she'll just feed me some crap about how that's now how they feel and that they do love me. Well I know they love me. I've just let them down so many times, it's hard to ever see myself doing something good for once. I've been planning to go back to school for awhile, but for some reason I can never motivate myself to get down there. I'm afraid I won't succeed and that I'll always be in my sister's shadow, even though I'm older than her. That just...pisses me off!

Okay, so I just had to get that out. I refuse to go back to a psychologist, mostly because I know how to analyze myself. I know what's wrong with me and why I feel the way I do. What I don't know is how to fix it and it's something I'm going to have to work on for the rest of my life. I just want to find someone that understands that. I'm not talking about my friends or even Kage. I know Kage loves me and understands me like no one else. But I want to find a guy who does. I don't know any one (guy) in my life willing or able to understand everything I've been through. Where do I find the courage to trust someone like that again? After my engagement blew up I felt like I would never be able to find someone who was truly interested in me...and not in sex. I've been on two dates since I broke up with my fiance and both times, the guys tried to get in my pants...on the first date! Come one, who does that? Isn't there anyone out there who is patient enough to wait!?!??!!?!? Argh!!!

All right, I'm done ranting now. Sorry to write all my angsty stuff here, but I haven't been able to talk to Kage since last week and therefor I have no outlet for my stress.

I also have no stories to update at the moment. My hours changed at work and I only work third shift now so I haven't had much time to write at all. Hopefully I can at least get a one-shot out for Kage. I promised one for her birthday so I intend to write it. Well I'll be off now. I've got to get ready to go to the Christmas party for work. I'll be with one of my stupid bosses...joy...Sorry, I just really hate my assistant manager. But that is a story for another day.

Ja ne
Kura

Hi guys!

Sorry I've been away for so long but I've just been so busy working that I haven't had much time for anything else but sleep. The managers at work have been switching my hours constantly so I've been working three different shifts for the past month. Today was my first day off in over a week so it was nice to sleep in. I'll work on my stories eventually but like I said, work is killing me. In the meantime how have you all been? Kage, I'm sorry we haven't had the chance to talk in awhile. I really miss you and there are a ton of things to tell you about. Like for instance I've recently gotten into this cool new Manga (which I totally wish they would make into an anime but don't think it'll happen) called W Juliet. It's a really great story, especially for those readers out there who love the romance part of anime/manga just as well as the action, mystery, suspense, etc. I'll tell you a little bit of the plot and see if it sparks your interest at all.

17 year old Matoko Narito wants to be an actor. Unfortunately for him, his father insists that he accept the position of master apprentice at the fighting dojo since he is the only male heir in a family of females (3 sisters). When Makoto stands firm with his resolve his father makes a bet with him. "If you can graduate school looking like a female, I will let you decide your future. If you're such a good actor, you'll be able to pull that off." So Matoko, dressed as a female, transfers out to a new school and comes face to face with Ito Miura.

Meanwhile, Ito is a female though she looks and acts very much like a guy. Her hair is short, she has an outrageous temper, and she even comes from a family of men (three brothers and a father...mother is deceased). Makoto and Ito meet up on the first day of school in the drama club (which Ito is the female president) and Makoto is shocked to find out Ito is a girl...but Ito is more shocked to find out Makoto is a guy. (How that happens, I guess you'll have to read). Anyway, Makoto believes it's all over and so quickly, yet Ito decides to help Makoto along the way so he can reach his dream. They become very close friends along the course of the next year or so and fall in love rather quickly.

That is the basic plot for the manga, however there are many adventures throughout their schooling and personal lives and slowly Makoto comes out of his shell a little bit and Ito becomes a bit more feminine. In a way Makoto is very feminine (slightly reminiscent of Kurama's red haired looks) and looks very much like a girl when he dresses like one. Also, they act in a few plays along the way and during their first performance Makoto plays Juliet and Ito plays Romeo. And no, that isn't a typo. For some reason, their teacher adores putting Ito in men's roles since she looks like a feminine man sometimes. Ito is 5'10" too which is really tall compared to other girls. It makes her a perfect fit for any male role. But eventually Makoto and Ito somehow switch roles (not during that particular play, I mean as the school year progresses and they grow up) and play opposite and Ito starts playing feminine rolls. And Makoto eventually plays all the male roles (which makes it tough for them to disguise Makoto as a boy). Think about it. A boy acting as a female who has to act like a man in a play? Sounds rather tricky, but it's always wonderful because Makoto is so hot dressed as a guy. He has this long hair underneath his wig (yes he wears a wig) that goes to his shoulders and I'm a sucker for guys with long hair.

Hm, what else can I tell you about the manga? Ito's brothers are rather wacky, but cool. Ryuto and Yuto are twins and are 22 when it starts and 24 by the time it ends. Tatsuyoshi is 15 when it starts and 17 when it ends. The brothers are funny and it may take a while to distinguish who is who, but now I've got it down. Ryuto has an outrageous temper, just like Ito. He is the oldest twin and set to run their own family dojo. As a result he is often hot headed and may appear brash sometimes but he cares for his little sister like a good brother. Yuto is the second oldest and Ryuto's twin. He has a rather calm personality (though he can get angry when it comes to something harming his sister) and he works as a chef in a really classy hotel. Eventually he ends up falling in love with Makoto's sister. Tatsuyoshi is the youngest and is picked on the most. Ito fights with him a lot and the twins, especially Ryuto, like to beat him up. They have a really close bond even through all the fighting and Ito's father just loves her to death. He goes all fuzzy and starts fighting with her 'to show affection'. Also, they are extremely suspicious of Ito especially when they find out she has a boyfriend, though they don't know its Makoto. They're always threatening to 'kill the bastard' if they find out he's not good enough for their little sister. And guess which part I'm at right now in the Manga? Guess where they just let it trail off? Noooooooooooooooooo! Now I'll never know how Ito reacts to waking up and discovering that her brothers know Makoto's secret. It makes me want to tear things up and throw a tantrum, but no I'll have to wait two more months till the last episode comes out. Doesn't that suck? Don't you hate cliff hangers?

Ahem...so yeah, I started collecting this Manga last week and overall there are 14 books...which totally sucks because I'm at Manga 13 and some major occurrences just happened...if you can't tell from what's written above. Anyway, I think that's enough for now. Sorry to report no new updates and Kage (eyebrow twitches) WHERE'S MY STORY????? I've been sitting on the edge of my seat for awhile now and I don't care that it's longer than a one shot. You gotta give me something so I don't go insane. Don't get me wrong, I'm not mad at you, just anxious. And it sucks that we both haven't had the time to speak to each other lately. It's probably my fault because I've had to work such strange hours when you'd probably be on. Anyway I miss you little sister and hope you're doing well. Good luck on all those new stories you're working on and I hope to speak to you soon.

Ja ne
Kura

Konnichi wa, minna!

I added a new story today! It's called The Art of Sacrifice and I believe it's going to be vastly different than anything I've written. Of course most of my stories have plots that are different than the norm but I have a feeling this one will leave me with quite the headache, probably you guys as well. It's going to be a INU/YYH/Sukisho. Pairings are as follows.

Kurama/Kagome/Yoko/Kaname(OC)-It's not what you think I didn't give Yoko another mate other than Kagome, not really. Kagome is like Kurama in the respect that she too carries the soul of a departed demon, only her's is phoenix and was Yoko's mate. It'll make sense, believe me.

Sora/Sunao/Yoru/Ran-Study the Sukisho universe or go back and read my last entry. Otherwise you won't understand and think it a foursome. I may throw in Matsuri with Sunao and Sora. I haven't seen too many stories with Matsuri thrown in there and I think it will actually fit within the bounds of this story.

Yusuke will be making an appearance and probably some other characters as well. I don't know if he'll have a mate or anything.

Anyway, I posted the first chapter in the Inuyasha section, though I'll probably go back and change it to Sukisho soon because I don't know how many Kag/Kur fans watch Sukisho.

As it is I'm really excited about my new story. I hope I can do well with writing for Sora and Sunao. I've already started the next chapter so I've written them a little bit and right now I'm just getting a feel for their personalities. Hope you guys read it and please remember to review. Kage, sorry I couldn't get on the other night. I had to work a third shift so I wasn't even home. Sorry, little sis, but hopefully my new story will make up for lack of Kura time.

Ja ne
Kura

Konnichi wa minna!

Oh man I got this idea to write a fanfiction and it seriously wouldn't go away. So I started it and I think it may actually be going well. But I don't know how well so I'm going to tell you guys the plot here and perhaps it will interest you enough to want to read it.

But before I do that, I must ask these three key questions. Two of which, you'll be able to answer with a definite 'yes!'. Now, who all of you have seen Yu Yu Hakusho? Of course, you have. Now, who all of you have seen Inuyasha? I'm guessing that's a double yes. However, how many of you have seen Sukisho? I'm guessing...not many. Since it did just come out and there are only 13 episodes and it is a Shounen-ai (boy/boy love, Yaoi) and I'm also not sure how many readers are into that sort of thing. But I'm finding myself able to fully immerse myself in the plot and fall in love with the characters. It gets rather complicated in some spots and you have to go back and watch all the episodes to full understand what's going on, but if you don't know what Sukisho is or haven't had the chance now the desire to watch it, I suppose I can tell you about it. After all, you're going to have to know the details if you want to understand my story. My story will take place after the events of Sukisho and be totally Alternate Universe for both Yu YU Hakusho and Inuyasha. So here is the summary of Sukisho.

(By the way, I have to tell you this information because my new story will be crossed with YYH/INU so please pay attention...or go out and buy the anime. There are only three DVD's and you can get them pretty cheap. You don't have to specially order them either. They should be at your local Best Buy or something like Suncoast or even FYE. The whole thing is in subtitles if you don't know how to read or fully understand Japanese. Hm, perhaps I'll post this in the Sukisho section, since those people have probably seen all three animes and will fully support Sunao/Sora.)

Okay, so anyway the plot goes like this. Sora is a blue-haired, blue-eyed male who goes to an all boys school. His new roommate is Sunao who is a pretty, pink-haired man with long hair and equally pink eyes. Upon their first meeting, Sora is 'approached' rather provocatively by Sunao who calls himself Ran. In the morning after that incident Sunao claims not to know what Sora is talking about and the boys are at odds for the first few episodes, though they manage to get along through the interference of their mutual best friend, Matsuri (a green-eyed, blond haired boy who reminds me of a cross between Kurama (YYH) and Kaname Chidori (FMP). Don't ask me why that is, but he's pretty cute and is always playing tricks on Sora and Sunao, trying to make them be better friends...and sometimes even more. For the first couple episodes, the show is mostly humorous, though you can definitely see the friction/tension (not the steamy kind) between our two pretty boys. But the plot gets deeper and deeper (and if you've seen the anime but don't know what happens or are planning to see it and don't want to know what happens, I'm about to tell you all the spoilers. So beware and skip all this if you don't want to know yet). Anyway, through many twists and turns we come to find out that Matsuri, Sunao, and Sora were best friends when they were little. But one day, Matusuri moves across seas with his family, leaving Sora and Sunao behind (they live in an orphanage). Sora and Sunao are then kidnapped by some scientists who torture them and lead them to create alternate personalities called Yoru (Sora-a blue-haired version of Yoko *grins*. Yoko fans would adore this slightly perverted version of himself) and Ran (Sunao) who has slightly darker eyes. At the time of his creation, Yoru was created by Sora to help protect his best friend and also to endure the cruelties enforced on the two while Ran was created from Sunao's need to protect himself. Yoru and Ran show up from time to time and are deeply infatuated with each other (one major love scene, though you don't see much and some kissing and rubbing of bodies from time to time). They can sort of take over (almost like Yoko and Kurama's situation, only we actually see Sora converse with Yoru from time to time). Anyway, one day two men (shinichiro and Nananmi) show up in an attempt to rescue the two kids, but only succeed in bringing back Sora. Sunao begged Sora to come back to him and to keep holding on after Sunao tripped and couldn't walk, but through a certain experiment done to Sora, the mad-scientist-evil-quack-guy 'forced' Sora to let go and leave Sunao behind. Unknowing of this and because of his abandonment, Sunao grows quite resentful and is taken away by the doctor until they return years later to complete the experiment started long ago...only this time Sunao is helping out of revenge for his abandonment. And so we come to find out that Sora has since lost all memories of Sunao and does not remember his past because he somehow fell from a fourth story building and managed to survive. He can't even remember the fall or why it happened Watch the anime, it'll tell you what happened. Matsuri is there as well now, though Sora didn't remember him either at first. He's the comedic relief and helps keep Sunao and Sora together (who actually manage to fall in love throughout the whole messy, angsty thing). Sunao's mission was to befriend Sora again in order for the scientist guy to be able to control mind control Sora again. Things happen and Sunao manages to get his revenge by having Sora stab Shinichiro (don't ask, I'm not explaining that whole area. You want to know, go watch the whole thing) who actually stepped into the knife to save Sora from future guilt and also to relieve his own for leaving Sunao behind all those years ago (Sora was under mind control at the time and Shinichiro and Nanami didn't have time to go back and rescue Sunao). After that Sunao and the scientist's son (an extremely smart student who is quite mysterious and actually aids Sunao and Sora later on) go to the doctor who tells Sunao of his disappointment in him. He believes Sunao failed because they didn't actually succeed in controlling Sora (since Shinichiro stepped into the knife, instead of the other way around). the scientist guy then tells Sunao of the real events that happened that day, that he had planned Sora's 'betrayal', that it was not fear or anything else that drove Sora to let go of Sunao. Sunao is now burdened with guilt over what he's been doing and tries to kill the evil bad guy (Aizawa, yeah that's it, sorry couldn't think of his name for awhile there) but is then tied down and restrained to a chair. After that Sora come to terms with his 'relationship' with Sunao and knows he loves him. He too feels guilt, having learned the truth, first from a confession of Sunao's past, and also from Yoru (who opened a locked door in Sora's mind and showed him the memory of what happened that day). Sora then tells Yoru that he can't rely on his alter-ego's strength anymore and has to go save Sunao on his own. So he goes and rescues Sunao and comes face to face with the Aizawa dude and manages to resist all mind-control aspects, rescuing Sunao and therefore ending the long drama..........................

BOY WAS THAT LONG! Are you all confused too now? I had to watch the damn show about 20 times (since it was in Japanese and I was stuck with reading subtitles) before I finally, finally understood everything that occurred. It's a rather complicated plot for the show only having 12 episodes (13, if you count the OVA 13'th at the end) but it's good if you like fluffy moments and also if you like drama. There aren't any major fight scenes like in Inuyasha or YYH but the drama aspect and angsty part of it are pretty good. You don't need fight scenes to bring out emotion.

And now that that's out of the way. My story is going to revolve around the end of Sukisho, right after Sora and Sunao escape actually. But it's going to start with Kagome and Kurama who live in a tiny house with Shippo (who is either Kagome's real son or adopted, I haven't decided yet, though he is not Kurama and Kagome's son). Kurama and Kagome went through something like Sunao and Sora did, though they managed to escape and their roles were a bit different. It was Kagome who protected Kurama (and yes, Yoko was present, though he's not an alter-ego like Yoru, he is still a demon) while Kagome also has a presence in her (I haven't decided who it is yet. I almost used Kuronue, and I suppose it is a possiblity. After all one of the couples is Sora/Sunao. Why can't Kuronue have been Yoko's mate in their first life only to turn out as Kagome in his next life? It's rather complicated and weird but I think I may actually be able to work with it. You know me, I can make anything work if I try hard enough. Anyway, eve if I don't use Kuronue, I'll just make up a character. Right now her name is Kaname (Kagome's counterpart).

Okay, this is going to be an extremely difficult plot to follow, mostly because as I write I'm giving stuff away, while trying not to make things to obvious. So, not going into detail now about Kagome and Kurama's past, mostly since I haven't worked it all out yet or written it yet, one night Shippo is kidnapped by Aizawa and thrown in a place where Sora, Sunao, and Masuri (I just wanted to throw him in there even though he was never kidnapped or targeted in th first place) are being kept. After that I haven't worked out the plot much, though I do have this whole scene planned out in my head where Kagome, Kurama, and another boy (who you all know well, but I'm not telling until I actually write the story) go and rescue Shippo and therefore meet the other boys. And that's all that I've worked out so far, nothing past the saving of Shippo and the other boys. So if you think it's at all interesting, please let me know. If it's not, I may or may not care what you think. If I think it's good enough, some day I may post it, but not before I write more and actually get into it.

Well I think that's enough typing for one night...and thinking as well. My hands are starting to cramp and I had to think real hard while trying to remember everything that happened in the anime so you all would get the gist of Sukisho. Sorry if I said too many spoilers, but I had to do it, otherwise none of you would ever be able to understand my story idea. I'll talk to ya'll later.

Ja ne
Kura

Hi, Minna! I decided I was bored and figured it was about time to take some more quizzes. It's been awhile so I wanted to see if some things are the same or if their are any new and interesting quizzes. So come on in if you're interested and check out my results.




Here's another one and some of the things are right, though I was most definitely not a good student in school. My head was always up in the clouds and I always seemed to have something else more important to think about. I could have been way better at school, but I just never did well on tests. I did okay with turning in homework and stuff...but test, let's just say tests were my biggest default. Anyway, here the results for the next test.



Well those were the only quizzes I found to be of any interest to me. I've already taken some of the quizzes before so there wasn't much left.

Anyway, sad to say I have no new updates for you patient people. But right now my head is too full of new ideas (crossover ideas; Full Metal Panic/Inuyasha/YYH, Inuyasha/YYH/Kyo Kara Maou, and Inuyasha/YYH/Sukisho) ones that will probably never exist because they seem far too complicated to write or I'm not sure I have the ability to write the specific characters I want to use. If I ever do write some new crossovers, I'll post them if I think they're good enough. You wouldn't believe how many other stories I started that just suck so I've never posted them.

I've also collected a new anime and finished it. It only had three DVD's and I hadn't watched it because it was in Japanese and it was kind of hard to figure out the plot when I only had subtitles to read. But I got the gist of it and I quickly fell in love with it. It's called Sukisho and it's yet another Shounen-ai one, though it's a lot more love-filled than KKM. There are some love scenes, though you don't really see anything. Just slight kissing and body pressing and that's it. There's some humor, but towards the end, the story takes a darker turn. It's pretty good and I recommend it to all you Shounen-ai lovers. (I'm sorry, Kage, I truly am a Yaoi-girl now, but I can't help it. Boys in anime are just too cute especially when they're together and getting fluffy *wink,wink*). Anyway, I think that's it for now.

Ja ne
Kura

Konnichi wa minna!

I'm back and feeling a little bit better, though I'm still sad a lot of the time. See I'm having 'issues' with my ex because his family decided they were going to take our dog (Sammy) back to the pound since he won't come and get her. See my ex lives in California (I, along with his family, live here in Ohio) and he is being an asshole and won't come and get her. I can't have her because I live in an apartment where my landlord is really strict and won't allow pets. I love my dog to pieces because she was the first dog I ever owned even though she never lived with me (she always lived with my ex's family). After we broke up I still left her there, thinking at least she would still have someone to take care of her. But my ex's dad got a hold of me and said that he was taking Sammy back to the pound. I still don't know the reason. I'm afraid to ask. I'm sure it's just because he doesn't want to take care of someone else's dog, even if it is his son's. I'm really pissed off at my ex over this. He should take some responsibility for his dog. It just proves that he's never thought of anyone or anything before himself. He's a selfish person I never saw before we broke up, but now I see it every time I think of him. I would love to have my dog and it practically kills me to know that she has to go back to that awful place after she's been living in that home for at least 6 or 7 years. I've been trying to think of something to do (strike a deal with my parents) or let her go, thinking perhaps she can go to a good home. At least they are sending her to the Humane Society since they won't euthanize the animals there. So I picked her up yesterday and spend the day with her. It was just like old times. But I kept crying every time I looked at her, wondering how I could ever live without her. She's the only thing in this world who always gave me comfort. She let me hug her whenever I was feeling bad. She's just like my child and it hurts that I may have to give her up. I just don't understand why my ex is allowing this. If he cared about her as much as he claims, then he wouldn't want her to be sent away. He would at least convince his parents to keep her for a little while longer. I'm extremely angry with him right now...and I haven't even talked to him since we broke up. I hate people. Why are they so cruel?

Okay, enough moping. Anyway, that whole story just sort of came out. I hadn't intended to post it, but it made me feel a bit better. It helps to write out my feelings since I'm not usually able to express how I feel through my voice. I'm not a big talker. And I don't enjoy talking about myself or my feelings with anyone...except for with Kage. She's my rock in times of pain. I love you, little sister. Anyway, I am getting better, though. I have a better relationship with my parents than I have had in years, but I'm still not able to show much emotion around them, let alone anyone. I hate crying in front of people. For some reason, I've gotten it in my head that it's a weakness to show people when you cry. A few years ago, I didn't show any emotion. I was severely depressed and didn't even smile. Of course most smiles nowadays are fake, as I do still work at Waffle House and have to put on an act to get my tips. True, I'm a lot happier than in recent years, but some days I think I'm being fake or putting on a facade. I don't think I remember what it feels like to be happy. I don't remember what it feels like to truly laugh out loud or to fall in love. Did I ever? I don't remember what it feels like to look at a person and think 'gee, I really do love you'. Everything with my ex screwed me up badly and I guess I feel used. It left me feeling like I would never be able to find happiness or to be loved by anyone. It's an unsettling feeling and I'm lonely. The only comfort I have is my best friend, Kage, but she lives way far away from me. I've never even met her before. We just talk online but I've come to find that we have a lot in common. In a way, she's helped me immensely. I've told her everything about me, because she's the type of person who doesn't judge anyone. I think she's the only one I trust completely since I find it hard to trust new people or even some of the people I trusted in the past.

Argh, and there I go ranting again. Sorry to burden you people with my burdens. But this is the only journal type thing I have and it gives me a chance to get things off my chest. It helps a lot, actually.

Okay so some fun facts before I go, things about me you might find interesting. I figured a lot of you don't know who I am, so I thought I'd tell you some things.

1.) I'm not going to tell you my name, at least not here. You can ask me through email or something, but just call me Kura.
2.) I'm 24.
3.) I don't have any career aspirations. I just have never figured out what I truly want to do. All I want to do is write, but you can't just do that. You have to have a way of supporting yourself before you're able to dedicate yourself to full time writing.
4.) I've been writing since I was 12. Before that I loved to read. I read things like The Saddle Club, The Babysitter's Club, Thoroughbred (series), Nancy Drew and Hardy Boys Supermysteries, things like that. And then my mom introduced me to romance books and I haven't stopped reading since. I started writing because I didn't particularly like a certain aspect of the Nancy Drew books. See, the mysteries were sort of like crossovers and there was a 'spark' between Frank and Nancy that never seemed to go anywhere except two minor kisses. I didn't like that. So I started writing my own stories. Eventually I even started writing Joe/Nancy (Frank's brother...I've always had a thing for blonds). I had fun with that stuff until I discovered anime in the form of Dragonball Z. At first I though the anime was a stupid cartoon. But then I watched some of the Cell Saga and I was hooked.
5.) Yes, DBZ was my first love. I watched that for many years and you wouldn't believe how many episodes I have. The only things I'm missing are the Saiyan Saga and the Cell Saga. I have almost every episode, including DBGT (except Dragonball).
6.) This is a complete list of the animes I am currently collecting and also ones I have recently gotten attached to. Some are just random animes I've seen but haven't necessarily gotten attached to:
a.) DBZ (Namek Saga, Frieza Saga, Trunks Saga, Android Saga, some cell saga, all of Buu Saga). These are all on VHS.
b.) DBGT (Whole collection) These are on VHS.
c.) Inuyasha (About half. 28 DVD's, including 4 movies, plus Movie 3 in Japanese)
d.) Yu Yu Hakusho (Whole collection. 32 DVD's, including 2 movies)
e.) Rurouni Kenshin (Only the first season. 5 DVD's)
f.) Full Metal Panic (Whole collection. 7 DVD's)
g.) Full Metal Pani Fumoffu (Whole collection. 4 DVD's)
h.) D N Angel (Whole collection. 7 DVD's)
i.) Wolf's Rain (not collecting)
j.) Saiyuki (3 DVD's, including 1 movie)
k.) Fuushigi Yuugi (2 DVD's)
l.) Final Fantasy VII-Advent Children (Really good if you like Final Fantasy (the video games, not the anime)).
m.) Elemental Gelade (3 DVD's)
n.) Kyou Kara Maou (Whole first season. 9 DVD's)
o.) Shakugan no Shana (New anime. 1 DVD)
p.) Tactics (Also new anime. 2 DVD's)
q.) Pretear (Whole Collection, Box set)
r.) Sukisho (1 DVD)
s.) Ceres (2 DVD's, didn't really get into)
Impressive isn't it? I started my collection of DVD's with Inuyasha in 2003. Look how far I've come! Anyway I think this journal entry has been long enough. I have nothing to report on story updates for the moment, as I'm still deciding what to update next. Don't worry, I'm still working, I haven't lost interest in them.

Talk to ya'll later.
Ja ne
Kura

Okay, look, Kage. I know you said you had a few earthquakes and everything but let me tell you they were nothing compared to the ones I experienced last night. You see Kuronue and Yoko were...well you get the picture. Not that there's anything wrong with that, it's just that well...I wasn't included! Those two sneaks decided to start the 'party' without me so I came home to find the whole house rocking on the foundation. Pictures were falling all over the place and glass was cracking. I was so mad, Kage! I had to get in that bed and 'punish' them. There were a few minor aftershocks after that, but nothing I couldn't handle. After all, I was the one creating those specific ones. It quieted down after I tuckered the poor saps out and then everything was right in the world again. So as you can see I recovered quite nicely from my earthquake. Now the only thing left is for your to recover from yours...which I hope will be soon because I'm desperate to talk to you about something. I only have a few days to figure out what to do about it too and I'm worried that I won't get to sort through this. I need you! So please, please, please, where ever you are, whatever you're doing, drop it now and come back to me. I swear it won't take long.

Also, I had this really scary freaky dream that I can still remember as if I just had it. And I had the dream on Tuesday night. But I can still see the images very clearly in my mind so I want to get this all out before I forget it. Perhaps it will scare you people too, as it terrified me. I want to know what your theories are on it after I tell you, because it is quite disturbing. Anyway so here goes.

It started with me walking down a street in my hometown and all of a sudden something started falling all around me. I looked up to see pieces of what looked like some kind of flying object breaking apart. At first I thought it was another Space Shuttle, you know like the one a few years ago that exploded when it was entering the earth's atmosphere, but upon closer inspection I discovered it was a huge plane. Someone had blown it up like on 911 and the pieces were falling all around me! Honest to god! I actually remember putting my hands over my head to protect myself, but at the same time I still had the sensation that my head was hurting, as if something had truly struck me even though I didn't feel it. Does that makes any sense? So anyway, while this was occurring me and some other random people ran into a nearby church and we all started hiding underneath the pews trying to protect ourselves. As we were hiding there a body fell from the sky and into the church. Someone cried, "he died" and I actually saw the moment of death because I think the person looked right at me before dying. Anyway, after that I remember saying "Oh my god!" And I did the sign of the cross about 3 or 4 times and prayed for the poor soul, while still saying 'oh my god' in my head a few more times and feeling sick. And then I looked up to see a figure or person walk over to me and that entity asked, "how does that make you feel?" And that's when I woke up. Seriously, I woke up right after I was asked that question. and it was a very bizarre awakening because I didn't jump up startled or anything. I just opened my eyes and rolled over.

So...how does that make you people feel?

Well I'll tell you how it made me feel. At first I was afraid. I mean I woke up right after all that happened and it felt very real until I realized it was all a nightmare. At first I just lay there and couldn't even begin to contemplate what had happened. Then I managed to get myself up to go to the bathroom where I felt a little ill and my brain felt a bit fuzzy. When I came back to bed I was too scared to fall asleep right away, afraid that I'd go back into that same dream. Hasn't that ever happened to anyone before? When you dream but you're awake at the same time. Or you wake up only to fall back asleep into the same dream? Anyway, after that...I got very angry! It had actually felt like someone was trying to tell me something. I've never had a dream so clear before, the images so bright and freaky. At first I thought, "who would dare send me a message like that?" It felt evil, but then it didn't. It was more like someone was trying to make me understand something I hadn't before. Whether God did it or the devil did, or perhaps it was just a product of my own imagination, but something about that dream was different from any other and I'm still quite confused about where it came from and why I had to see those specific images. I mean I can still see the plane falling apart, huge pieces falling out of the sky and stuff. I can see the street I was on and the church I was hiding in. I can even see the wooden pews and have the sense that there are others around me. But what I can't see is the person who died, though I know someone did, and I can't see the person who actually spoke to me. All I see is a shadow, no clear faces. Anyone want to comment? Anyone have any theories about dreams or specialize in studying dreams? I'd really like someone else's opinion. I asked a guy friend of mine and he thought it was just a weird dream. It figures. It's so typical of men to be unafraid or unaffected by anything, never bothering to ask any questions about why something happened.

Well I think that's all for now. Oh wait! I'm currently working on a couple of my stories, one of which is Genie of the Lamp. I wanted to know what you guys want to happen next. I believe this story will be relatively short and I'm going to have the boys free Kagome soon. After all they don't really need anything. They don't strike me as the type of thieves who take handouts when they could take something for themselves. I have one wish idea and I think it'll be good, but I still want to know what you guys want. Do you want Kagome to be free soon? Do you want me to throw in some needless plot designed only to cause tension and to prolong their coming together? Do you have any other wish ideas, things that are not necessarily normal. The wishes can be humorous, but something that no one else would think of. Please sent me your ideas and it'll really help me move my story along. I'm kind of stuck otherwise.

Well I think that's all for now. Once again, Kage I really do need to talk to you. It's been so long that I'm starting to feel a bit selfish. I know your family is important to you and I support you a 100% of the way...but still. I need my Kage sometimes too! Your Kura is feeling slightly neglected. WAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH! Hope to hear from soon.

Ja ne
Kura